Before my husband joined the Coast Guard we discussed all the pros and cons and I thought I could handle it. I, after all, was in the Marine Corps, I know about military life. I know how hard it can be, and how hard the work could be. I still wanted him to do it. I saw working a 9-5 job as a soul-sucking endeavor that I really didn't want him to experience. I mean, some of my jobs have been neat but they've only been jobs. I wasn't excited about any of it. It is hard to swallow sometimes since I have a Bachelors and two Masters I'm still working on repaying.
When he used to talk about the time he had in the Army he had this glint in his eyes. I could see he missed it. He was fully aware of all the suck that comes with it but the military brings you a camaraderie no other job can compare to. He's been in the Coast Guard over a year now and I see how much he loves it. His first unit as a non-rate was exactly what he needed. His current unit tries his patience but I know with my love and support he can weather it.
I miss him though. I like it when he's in my bed every day. When he wakes me with kisses every morning because he needs some company before going to work. How he cooks me meals, cracks jokes, dreams with me. I know it's not long deployments. I still get to speak with him most nights he is not home, and texts when calls aren't possible. Our love is strong and we are always supporting each other. I miss him because he's my best friend. I know it will get better, but a part of me always wants to miss him when he's away from me. It makes the coming back together so much more memorable! I want to grow old with him. I want to always work on making him happy as much as he makes me happy. It's sappy but love is sappy, and I'm corny.
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