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Social anxiety

I never thought I had a problem with going into a crowded room of people and being able to socially maneuver through an evening until recently. I want to go out, make new friends, participate in activities but when I want to and how I want to. Any other way I end of overwhelmingly anxious and just want to go home. I know it sounds selfish but I think over the years I've grown to know what I like and what I dislike and anything else seems like a waste of time.

But I am trying. My husband does a great job with taking me out and we have made friends with neighbors, co-workers and are even expanding our circle. For the Superbowl we went to a party in our neighborhood and it was pretty low key and awesome but as more people arrived I started feeling the anxiety. I wonder if its also mixed with claustrophobia? I don't like being in any room with too many people. It makes me feel weird.

The strangest thing is that I am a Program Manager and I think I'm pretty adjusted at work. I've also been an adjunct instructor, served in the Marine Corps and have done many jobs requiring loads of interaction with people. Ironic I know. Well one day at a time! We are going to try to sign up for some classes like fencing or other classes and see where it takes us.


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